Alright, because I have neglected this poor journal so much, and because I am in the mood... I have decided that I will directly link you to my newer, current journal.
I pretty much doubt people even check this journal out, except for maybe Leslie and Amanda... but if you wash upon these shores looking for me, I will safely direct you to the forbidden realm of:

coffinkittie

Current Mood: relaxed

I know.
I have been avoiding this journal a lot, haven't I?
It has nearly been nine years I have had this.
In fact, by the the 26th of June, it will be.
I feel bad that I have moved on to my other journal.
But I am a new person.
I also just started a new journal.
That one will be for some serious article type entries.

Come the 14th, it will be six years for Ghost and I.
Can you believe it?
Crazy, huh?

Current Mood: artistic

Is has been awhile, eh?
I know I should be posting more here, but my life is so different from Murdock now.
My family is beautiful.
My life is sweet.
And those people who ever said anything have been proven wrong.
It has been 5 1/2 years that I have been with Ghost...
Can you believe it?

Yes.
A Post.
A short one, at that.
I thought I might say hello.
I am not dead, yet.
(So stop asking Spike.)

I miss you all.
Did you even notice I was away?
::evil smile::

Prehaps I will check in next Tuesday.

It's been about three years and six months.

I had two people close to me saying Ghost would lie.
That it would be bad,
That I'd get hurt.

I had one closer friend bothered by the relationship.
It took my time away.
It took me away.

I had one older flame saying shit.
Telling me that the Ghost would become a memory.
I would be left with a haunting feeling.

I had one friend that was happy for me.

It's been about three years and six months.

I would never change a thing.
Because "now I see the sun".

There is a reality outside the glass.
It's deeper than anything a wired (or wireless) connection can give.
It's more than text on a screen.
I made the choice to grow up,
And out.
To fight for what I wanted,
To work hard and long,
And I found what I wanted.
With the blessings of some higher powers I believe.

I believe in happiness.
I believe in true love...
And for that I am truly blessed
With things more profound than material wealth.

I'm going to have a family soon.
I'm going to have a real reason to continue...
Something beyond the day-to-day survival.

I would not change a thing.

It's been about three years and six months...
I expect a hundred more to come.

Current Mood: sore

I know.
I haven't quite been paying attention to my journal.
My life has changed so much.
I'm grown a lot into myself
Since I started this journal 6 years or so ago.

Finally being back online is refreshing.
I am keeping a journal here on livejournal.
A more personal journal,
With nonsense on a daily basis.
It's more who I am now...
But at the same time has nothing to do with Murdock.

Murdock is not all dead,
But most of Murdock is.

I sitll haven't got a job.
It's hard when you only have three months to offer an employer.
And at minimal work.

I'll have a full-time job in January.
One I will not be paid money for.
I will be paid in full:
With emotions,
Smiles,
And scrapped knees...
First days,
Broken hearts,
And hopefully a million hugs.

I don't miss working 52 hours a week.
But I do miss working.
And my friends there.
And money...
I'll not get started,
I don't want to stress myself out.


I'm here.
Just not as Murdock.
If you are truly interested in knowing of my other (more stupid) journal
Let me know.

Current Mood: cranky

I've been up to pretty much nothing.
I guess I'll start working again soon...
I've made many applications.
And Tuesday I apply for auditing.
I hope I get it.
I could use it on my resume in the future.

Current Mood: calm

The daylight gives me a headache.

I have come to the realization that I am changing.
I haven't seen that dark depression in so long...
I seen disappointment.
I've been annoyed.
I've be upset.
But I just haven't seen those days in a long time.

I'm different now.
I embrace who I am.
Even though I am a dork.

I like what I like.
So what?

I still feel a empty place though.
I'm still trying to figure out what goes there.
Maybe I will find out soon.

Current Mood: working

I'm wondering why I bother to be awake in the day.
I might as well sleep.
I'm dying from heat.

I worked my asre off last night...
Must of lost twenty pounds from sweating...
::sighs::
Hopefully it will pay off.

Things are looking better...
For now...
At least here.

I need a life.
... and a job...

Current Mood: hot

Still getting up too early,
But soon as I'm done with breakfast I'm going back to bed.

So what have I done from my list to do?
Practically nothing.
I'm not too suprised.

I did work on Blood Secrets a little,
Did a rough re-start on one of the stories.
I did a little bit of art,
But nothing decent yet.
::shrugs::
I don't know if I'm going to worry about it.
I'm just too lazy right now.
And I want this time off...
::blinks::

Current Mood: okay